|The Church of St. Thomas (photo by Evelyn Simak, |
I was disappointed when I was not able to see You this morning. I have grown to treasure our morning visit, Mass and the reception of Your Sacred Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity- so nourishing, peaceful and transforming. I have noticed over the years that on those days I am unable or foolishly choose not to start my morning this way, the rest of my day is often more hectic and stressful. I marvel at Your great Love and Generosity in making Yourself so available to all of us. We certainly are not worthy of that love and attention.
How joyful I felt as I drove up to Your place later that same day. I did not have a lot of time to spend with You, but You can do so much in such a short period of time. It is nice to end my day with You, however briefly our time together may be.
I began talking to You as I walked towards the Church door. As I grabbed the door handle, I was anxious to be with You. Suddenly, my peace was shattered. The door was locked. I could not get in. You were there waiting for me, but I could not get in. It was only 3:30 in the afternoon!!! Had others come and been denied admittance? So few ever visit You; how disappointed You must be when finally we come to see You but cannot get in.
This is not the first time that I have been locked out. I sometimes stop at Your other places during my travels but cannot get in. For so much of my life, I took You for granted and rarely thought of You. Now I am incensed when we are kept apart. You told St. Margaret Mary Alacoque that you have a “terrible thirst to be loved by your creatures in the Most Blessed Sacrament”. You gave us this gift of Yourself. You long for us to visit and to show You heartfelt appreciation for all that You have done for us.
Continue reading at Micheal's blog Harvesting the Fruits of Contemplation.